Pregnancy Update:

So the most exciting thing that has happened thus far in my pregnancy is that about a week ago, we found out we are having a baby boy! (about the only other exciting/happy thing that will happen is for this kid to get born!) We are all so excited and Emma says hello to baby brother every morning :) There are a few reservations though. I have a little anxiety over the fact that its a boy. I knew before I got pregnant that he would be, but I was still hoping for another little girl. Don't hate on me! Girls are easy to me, I mean, I am one and I have two ya know. Boys are different, foreign to me. It will definitely take some getting used to. In one of those rare moments when are girls are playing together and laughing, Luke looks over at me and said, "Part of me kinda wishes we were having a girl. Not because I don't want a boy, but why wouldn't I want more girls, look at them, they're so cute!" He also feels a lot of pressure to teach our son "man things" because that's "the dad's job." I calmly reassured him that our son would know how to cook and do his own laundry and change the oil in the car. That we would teach our kids all the same things together. He felt a little better after that :) Anyhow, so as an ending to our happy news, here is the name of our new son: William Jennings Moore, after both Grandpas, who will mostly be known as Will.

Now, onto other news. I have been getting really dizzy, lightheaded, and shaky lately and have almost passed out a few times. I have slightly low blood pressure and slightly low iron levels, but not enough to affect me like this. So I was thought to maybe have heart problems. On Monday I had an EKG and was hooked up to a heart monitor for a few days. I won't get an results back for like a week and a half. But they did take the extremely sticky monitor things off yesterday and hooray, I had blisters underneath all of them. Some big, some little. Super hot especially when you are wearing anything other than a turtleneck. But that will soon pass. Unfortunately, I don't see my excessive neediness going away anytime soon. I cry every time Luke leaves for work or school. I just don't want to be left alone. I need my husband. Mostly because I know no matter how many times I puke, complain, pee my pants, struggle to think straight, can't get off the couch to make dinner, get depressed, or cry for no reason, I know he will still love me. He is my best friend and I can tell him anything. Plus the fact that Emma has started acting horrendous lately doesn't help either. Literally so defiant about everything. When to eat, what to eat, when to go to bed, where to sit on the couch, what to play with, pretty much anything you can imagine. Regular Emma is hard to deal with when I am sick and tired. But now it's independent Emma and teething Lilah (premolars) and those are on the days when I can actually function. I am getting incredibly depressed because I am already so uncomfortable and in pain most of the time, and I am not even to my half way mark yet. How will I get through the next five months? I literally don't know. We were planning a trip to the zoo, but I don't think I can do that much walking, and I would feel bad if I ruined it for everyone else. I am reading books like a crazy person, but even that is starting to get boring. Hopefully soon it will be fall, that always makes me feel better. Anyways, that is how I am doing. If you need someone to visit, please let it be me. My kids are always better when others are around and I can always use some adult conversation not centered on Mickey or Elmo.